Am I wasting my life waiting for you?

Well,i haven’t written in awhile.But Ive written a thousand times in my mind. After my hubby came back from his trip we tried to pick up life again. But then it was nonstop work without a weekend. A couple of days off(one of which was spent with his family). And that was two weeks ago! He got called away again for a few days and i had to resell dodgers tickets i had gotten for our weekend. I know that all of this is beyond hard on him.I see the wear and tear. But what about the person that’s always having the plans cancelled on them? The one who doesn’t feel secure in this? As a housewife you’re a wife. Holding down the fort making life comfortable.But i mean,what exactly am i doing if im not really doing the wife part? Am i just here to shop, manage the house,binge watch a show. Its hard feeling like you are just a shadow.Not a real person in society. So,I decided something has to change.I need to stop waiting for it all to start. I’m getting back in this crazy world.No more hiding behind my apron strings. Back to finish my degree i go! Lord have mercy.

Xo- zombie housewife

currently listening to – jay & the Americans

I’ve always hated vanilla

A few months ago I got lost in a vortex. Of housewife blogs. My husband was away on a month long business trip and I needed to find some comfort somewhere.But through all of my digging I never found a wife out there that I could really relate to. Dont get me wrong I found a lot of good tips. How to keep yourself occupied while your hubby’s gone,some recipes, things like that. But I noticed a trend.The majority of these wives all looked the same, with picture perfect decorated homes. From all natural baby food recipes to mommy wine nights. An unrelatable lifestyle.As Larry David said it, “vanilla bullshit”!. Maybe their lives are as crisp as the linens they post,but mine isn’t. I share a 650 sq ft apartment with my husband. That is an eclectic mix of horror movie posters,vintage inspired knockoffs,mismatched furniture that I love,and Betsey Johnson houseware i found at Ross.. I have massive anxiety and a passion for band shirts. Sure I cook and bake and do all those stepford wife duties. But what about the wives that don’t have kids,or a perfect life.The ones that have health problems, marriage issues, money issues(everything we’ve already covered at some point in our almost 5 years). what about those wives? Its like HS all over again,feeling strange for not fitting the definition of what your label is. And I’m here to vent about it. I love being a wife. And I’m so fortunate that I’m able to stay home and do everything that i need to do.Lets just say I married one of the good ones. I’m really only starting this blog as some sort of creative outlet for myself.And who knows, maybe one day some other wife out there like me will find it and not feel like a loner in this carbon copy society anymore.

xo- zombie housewife

Currently listening to- Everlong by The Foo Fighters



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